I have been traveling along this well-planned road of my life, taking care of my family, juggling homeschooling, housework, exercising, keeping us all on a predictable routine. Even though one of my New Year's goals was to choose to be more spontaneous, and I have really tried to do that, for the most part my days fly by like a well oiled machine.
And then I hit a bump in the road.
"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God;" Philippians 4:6
Beginning February 7, I have undergone repeat mammograms, ultrasounds, ultrasound-guided needle biopsies, surgical biopsy, and day after day after day after day of waiting on pathology reports. It has been a long almost three weeks. Friday, I finally got the diagnosis:
DCIS (ductal carcinoma in situ)---which is non-invasive breast cancer.
"casting all your care upon Him, for he cares for you." 1 Peter 5:7
I am having an MRI later today, and I will be meeting with my surgeon tomorrow morning to discuss my next surgery, which will most likely be later this week. The good news is that this type of cancer is cured surgically.
"in the multitude of my anxieties within me, Your comforts delight my soul." Psalm 94:19
I had no symptoms. I consider myself healthy. In fact, I had put off even having my first mammogram for over 2 years. My doctor recommended that I have a mammogram the last time I had a check-up, when I was 40. Now I am 42. For some reason, back in January I decided to make an appointment for a check-up with my OB/GYN, and I made the appointment for the mammogram for the same day. January 27th. And that's when the questionable areas were first detected.
Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in You." Psalm 56:3
Jimmy has been perfectly loving, comforting, and supportive throughout this entire process. I could not ask for a better husband, and I certainly don't deserve him. Lynn, my dear friend, who has run countless hours with me and endured two marathons with me, has been a rock for me. She has accompanied me on doctor visits, and always asks the right questions. She also stayed with Jimmy the entire day for my surgery (she even arrived at the hospital before we did!). She has coordinated food being brought by other dear friends to my family. She has kept my children. I have many other friends and family who have also kept my children, and helped out in other ways as well. I have been surrounded by love and support, and most of all encouraging words and prayers.
"I sought the Lord, and He heard me, and delivered me from all my fears." Psalm 34:4
My prayer throughout the last couple of weeks has been for God's will for me. For strength to handle His will, graciously, even thankfully. That's what the verse in my blog header says....give thanks in all circumstances. God's Word is true, and it is to be obeyed. I am to give thanks in all circumstances, so I am trying.
"You will keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You. Isaiah 26:3
One benefit of all of the anxiety I have had is that whenever that feeling of anxiousness creeps up on me, I immediately begin praying for other people. I bring to mind all of the email prayer requests I receive, people who need prayer in my church family, my personal family, friends who are enduring hard times, anyone who has expressed a need for prayers that I am aware of......I am praying for them!
I will keep you all posted of my upcoming surgery plans.
"Bring joy to your servant, Lord, for I put my trust in You." Psalm 86:4 (NIV)