Earlier tonight Sam excitedly came running to me saying, "I found it! I found it! I found it!"
He was grinning from ear to ear! I asked him what he found, and he shouted joyously, "I found my ba ba!" I asked him where? (I had put all of his pacifiers up high in the kitchen cabinet except for one that I hid in the nightstand beside my bed....in case of an emergency :)!!) He replied that he had found it downstairs, meaning the basement. I realized then that there must have been one in the shoe basket. Earlier I had asked Clay to go through the shoe baskets downstairs and bring me all of the socks to wash. I am thinking that when he dumped out the baskets, a pacifier must have fallen out too. I figured that one day Sam would find one that I didn't know about. I didn't think it would happen so soon.
Today was Day 11 of no pacifiers, and only yesterday did he stop asking for them! He has been a real trooper the last 11 days. He has sadly asked for them a couple of times each day, and each time he did I was plagued with guilt! He also no longer played with my hair. I guess the pacifier and hair smelling, holding, and twisting all went together. When he came running to me tonight, he jumped into my arms, grabbed my hair, and sniffed deeply! Bliss! He was so happy!
I have had a difficult time the last 11 days getting him settled down for naps and bedtime. Most nights it took one hour for him to finally fall asleep. He would not cry, but just romp all over the bed, singing and talking. He just couldn't be still and relax. He would not snuggle up to me with his face buried in my hair and fall asleep. Well, tonight since he had his beloved ba ba, after 3 stories and prayers, he promptly laid down, took a handful of hair to sniff, and fell asleep in four minutes!!!!
Will I take this pacifier away? I don't know. Yes, we had made it 11 days, but his joy over finding that one ba ba just broke my heart! We'll see!